Still Here

I really should post more often. We had a great holiday season but it lacked snow! Now it is a new year and time seems to be going too fast. It seems like the kids have a grown a couple inches each time I look at them. There's so much to accomplish and so little headway.

It is hard to keep upbeat. My job hunt continues and the desire to move increases. At the same time I dread moving after being in a place for over seven years. By seven years, I mean in our house. I've been here in this town for over 20 years. I'm comfortable but yearn for change.

It seems you can't get a job in another state without being transferred by a current employer or by having some good connections. I feel there is something out there for me that I just haven't run into but I am growing impatient. I don't want to take much longer if we are going to relocate because I don't want to bounce around my kids too much and would like to avoid doing it in the teenage years. I do like to settle and get comfortable.

My move from Idaho to Texas took me a good while to get over. The culture was different and I didn't merge "into traffic" until midway through Junior High though we moved here when I was in 4th grade. My son is now the age I was when my family moved to Texas. He is a lot like me and I don't want to put him through too much of what I went through.

So, here we are. While it feels like a rut, I know we are blessed to have what we have and even to be where we are. I do want more but I want it for my kids. I want to provide them with a great youth and point them in the right direction for a great future. I'll be thrilled just to give them more than I had. I think I'm succeeding to an extent namely in providing them with love and support.